Bye Bye

Heeeeey :)
this is my last entry ;)
Now I´m 18 years old and Roof is already 2 years old.
Yees Sam and me aren´t together anymore.I´ve got a new boyfriend and Sam a new girlfriend. We both are very lucky und good friends.
I think for Roof it couldn´t be better.
He always sees his mum and his dad.
Well my story ends here.
Thank you for reading.
I hope you liked it. :P
LOve Alicia Franzi


Our "little" Roof.

Yes! We are good friends :)

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Well, I don´t think that it will have a good end with Sam and I.
Sam never came back to us. Okay, he visited Roof, but he doesn´t live with us anymore. He was here for a hour.
I was taking a bath when he knocked at the door of the bathroom and asked if he can come in. I opened the door and he came in. He said that I could go back in the bathtub. I thought that he just wanted to look at me and than he said something that shocked me. He said that he got better things to look at. I asked him what that means, but he gave me no straight answer. That was too much for me. Everything went a fast way and I said things, which I now regret. I said, that he would never see Roof again and things like that. Then he got loud and we both screamed until my mum came in. She helped us to talk like adults. Sam came to us because he read things about teenage pregnancy and he read that the fathers loose the contact to their sons. This frightend him that much, that he needed to talk to me about that.
I can understand him. He still loves Roof like me and I can´t imagine a life without him,too.

It´s really strange in this moment.
Sam and I argue about silly things like a t-shirt that lies on the floor.
I don´t know what to do. Sure I hate it when we argue the whole time, but Sam really upsets me.
Maybe Sam´s cold has come perfekt for us. You have to know that Sam is sick and we all are very frightend, that he could infect Roof. So we have agreed that he sleeps at home for now. Now we both can calm down and when he comes back, it may be much better.

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Oh dear.

I swear it´s really not easy to take responsibility for a baby.

Sam and I have had no sufficient sleep since 3 weeks. Every night Roof cries after 3 hours sleep and that one or two times the night. And I have not got used to it. Every time when he cries, I worry what´s going on in my room.

BUT!

…that´s not all!

My look has changed a lot. When I look in the mirror, I don´t see the Alicia, I have seen before.

This Alicia looks very tired and very, yes I would not say untidy, but I don´t have time for me. That means no makeup and no extravagant hair-styles. Sometimes I could cry when I see that.
There is no Alicia anymore, who has the dream of being a model.

Sometimes I think of my life before Roof was born. Sure it was easier. No changing diapers, sleep the whole night and going out meeting friends…all the things that teenagers normally do. How hard being a mum is …

I would never give up my life for anything of this world.

When I see Roof smiling, I forget everything of that.J

Being parents can also be very funny. For example there is a little competition between Sam and me.

We both look who change diapers the best and I have to say that Sam is much better than me, but I don´t give up. One day I will be better ;)

Yesterday Sam and I had our first fight .

At college Sam beat my ex-boyfriend, who is called Jason.

Jason provoked Sam. He said that I am a b**** and so it means that Sam couldn´t be sure that he is the dad of Roof. But Sam knows that I split up with my ex, because he just wanted the one thing. Well Sam knocked Jason down.

When he came back home, he told me the story and something unsettled him, so that he really put in a question if he´s the dad or not. I couldn´t believe it and it made me really sad. In my opinion Sam knows who is Roofs dad? SAM! Who else?! We fight with words and in the end I told him that for him the world is still open. He can just do what he wants. Sam can go to college everything what I see is the inside of our house. I mean I never would become an atomic scientist or a famous book-writer, but I would become something.

After a time calmed down and I apologized .We embraced each other and we even kissed a little bit.

Everything went it´s normal way this day. Roof and I slept a bit and Sam went out for skating. One hour later Sam´s mum came and helped me with Roof. She looked for him, so that I could go out and have some time for me. It was just half and hour, but I really enjoyed it.

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Today Sam moved to us. Now our little family is complete and i´m really happy about that. I think it is going to be very hard in the next time with Roof.So it´s better when Sam is here the whole time,maybe he can do things for me. With him it´s easier to be a good mum. We can manage everything together with school and so you know ;) . Just beeing a normal family .
When he arrived here, I saw his poster from Tony Hawk,which was in his room before. Sam thought that he could put it up on my wall! Please! Which girl wants to have big poster from Tony Hawk on the wall? I said Sam that i don´t want to have it there and he said that his mum had throw it away, so he brought it with him. Now the poster is under our bed.

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